Observations

I can stop partway through a transformation. I've done it three times. (Out of 116, I think, counting both directions.)

I am not good at it. I held it once for two seconds and once for about thirty before losing control and completing it. The third time, it was hard for about two minutes and then I got stuck with fur and all my joints from elbows and knees out gone wolf, and my shoulders and hips sort of halfway there. (Only for a few hours this time. Thankfully. Obviously I changed back eventually or I couldn't type.)

I have no idea why rearranging my skeleton doesn't hurt much, but I'm very grateful.

Changing that many times makes me hungry.

Smelling food is apparently a very good way to get unstuck, which probably means I wasn't trying hard enough before.

I will not try to change from wolf to human and stop partway in public unless I absolutely have to, or am very sure I can stop with all my fur on, and probably not then either.

(no subject)

I wasn't going to tell anybody they'd "had it easy." That I can't judge, no.

But if some of you want to call yourselves monsters and sneer at everyone who didn't have as hard a time as you or somebody you knew and put down the efforts of everyone who does try to help anybody because you don't want it or couldn't get it when you did or don't believe in it....

I know you can't stop anyone finding hope or joy despite or because of their mutations. Because if some of what the bairns here live with hasn't stopped them, you're not likely to be able to do a thing.

And I'm glad.

Good night.